Hi! I’m Allison McKee. I’m a Certified Fitness and Nutrition Consultant and a Certified Life Coach. I have a deep appreciation for the physical body and the way that it becomes a barometer for what is going on in other areas of your life.
I didn’t have a single body image issue as a child. No one called me fat. I didn’t think I was fat. I have one body memory after buying a bikini for a family trip to Hawaii when I was 17, wondering whether or not I would look good on the beach because I was so pale. That’s it.
My body image issues came out with a vengeance after I had my first baby at 19. I didn’t know how to have a healthy pregnancy. I didn’t know how to pay a bill on my own. I didn’t know anything about eating for health and hunger. And I gained a whopping 80 lbs! I lived on Cheeseburgers and French Fries. My mom told me that this baby would be so greasy, he would slip right out.
I was completely numbing myself out with food. I had a lot of self doubt about what kind of mom I would be. I had too many self limiting beliefs to count. I was living under a shame shawl and a blanket of uncertainty about what my life was going to look like. What others thought my life looked like.
High school graduate to mother and wife in less than a year.
I hadn’t worked through all those toxic beliefs when I became a personal trainer and opened a fitness facility 16 years later.
I jumped into the hard core fitness bitch persona pretty quickly. I was given that title by some of my clients. Sadly, I wore it with a badge of honor and pride. I was a one woman show, don’t you know? I was a hard core bitch. Teaching multiple classes a day and participating in them as well. Coaching clients and doing their workouts along side them. Leading run groups and running with the participants. Doing my own training on the side.
That’s what fit and healthy people do right? They exercise a lot and only eat green things.
I believed I had something to prove around who I was and what I could do. I had no control over my life, but I could control my body.
My weight dropped of course. I was extremely particular about my ‘clean’eating diet. I needed a science degree to calculating what I needed for caloric intake and to get all the nutrients I needed to fuel my unsustainable lifestyle. I was in the best ‘physical’ shape I had ever been in.
“It’s so refreshing to see a facility owner that walks the walk”- I was told.
People looked in my grocery cart at the grocery store.
People watched what I ordered when we went out to eat.
I was constantly ‘ON’ and also on parade.
It really felt good on an egoic level.
My physical body however, was having an extremely hard time keeping up.
I was falling apart and I didn’t know how to stop.
I was having a 20 second kiss at 20 miles into a marathon, celebrating 20 years of marriage with my husband when this picture was taken. So romantic. So sexy. I love this picture for all of the reasons you can’t see. It was the turning point for me. You can’t see the heel spurs and exercise induced hemorrhoids I was suffering. You can’t see that despite my so called ‘perfect’ body that I was miserable. You can’t see that I’m exhausted. You can’t see that I had just begged the race volunteer to drive me back to the finish line. You can’t see that I had been pinching my belly telling myself that I needed to tighten up the diet to run faster. You can’t see that my relationship had been suffering as I had been using my body as a weapon.
This is one of those times you look back on your life to know that is where it all turned around.
I went on a journey to discover what it meant to live pleasure in my life. Especially in my body. Because to have pleasure in my body also meant that I had pleasure in my relationships, my career. My life. This is what it took to be happy. Not the number on the scale or the finish time of a race.
The primary intention is to FEEL GOOD. Most women don’t feel good. They feel tired and fat. Unproductive and unmotivated. They feel turned off rather than on. And so many other ‘less than’ emotions.
I’ve learned that self care is the mainstay of living pleasure. I’ve learned that discovering and reconnecting to YOUR own body is where the joy you are looking for lives. And contrary to popular belief, you don’t need a pill, a shake, to count calories OR to follow a grueling workout plan to live in a body you love. You just need to figure out what YOUR body needs to feel good.
Feeling good is eating for health and for hunger. Knowing what foods make your body feel good and thrive.
Feeling good is moving for purpose and pleasure. Knowing what movement makes your body feel good and thrive.
Feeling good is learning about who you are. What you desire. And how you want to show up in YOUR world. Knowing what makes you feel good and thrive.
I will show you how to discover all of that.
I believe in Self-Health- The umbrella under which body, mind and spirit reside. YOUR Body. YOUR mind. YOUR Spirit.
Let me help you with that today!